Sometimes

Anne via flickr
Anne via Flickr

Sometimes

I want to

let down my guards;

be crazy

Sometimes

I want you to

save me

without me asking

Sometimes

I am stuck between

my heart; longing

my mind; reasoning

Sometimes

I want you to

quieten the reasoning

nourish the longing

do the saving

Sometimes

I want to

let down my guards;

be crazy

Let me say it

Let me say it

I am tired of

putting on a show and

giving out signals of

smiles, rainbows and “all clear”

Let me say it

I am tired of

painting it happy

Don’t ask me to say;

It’s okay

Stop telling me;

everything is

A part of me knows that

it will be, eventually

I am not weak enough to

lose it all

But right now

let me say it

Everything is not okay