So I have to write for the first challenge of the writing 101 thingie. I have to write for the next 20 minutes. time noted. I really don’t have anything particular in mind so Im going to just vomit words directly out of mind. I had an okay day at my university and only thing i was looking forward to was this assignment. i am kind of happy and excited to do this. i have been going through a phase of numbness and nothing really excites me. This is something that’s pushing me to do something. So its a good thing right? I really want to write good and reach out to people.Also want people to reach out to me.My mind is kind of in an overdrive since i started blogging. So this my stimulation now a days. I feel like Im writing a diary.. not sure if this is the purpose of the whole thing. Whatever it is Im going with it. Checking the time hmm still have to write and I dont know what to write anymore. Numbness is the next thing that comes into mind… why do we get depressed and numb and so sick of stuff. Why do we want appreciation and why do we get down when we dont get it for a long period of time. Not everyone is good at everything but how do we find out if we are good at something at all or not? I think that i can write not excellent but just okay. Even that is good for me I want to get good at this I am trying and this exercise is one of those tries. i am stuck in something that is really not me or my domain and I want to do something that is in my domain. I dont have an out from this thing but i am finding or seeking my refuge in writing … i hope something good comes out of it. Now im thinking iv written too much personal stuff. but i think that is sort of what i wan to do let it all out. somehow find my happy place or a place comfortable enough to breathe in. This reminds me of a quote from my all time favorite show grey’s Anatomy “i want something good too”. trying to find my “something good”. im really hoping this blog would get me somewhere or if nothing at least Ill find some of me back. Time is up. Bring it on!